I'm just awake. I usually am around this time every night. It's 3:00am now. I just got home about an hour ago from, celebrating my 27th birthday 🎉 I had a really good time! I really did. I enjoyed myself, I had a few drinks.... Funny thing is, I'm still drinking as I'm typing this, JACK DANIELS. I feel I'm getting sober... Weird as fuck! I may not post this I feel I'm just rambling. I just want to clear my head. Yes, I did have a great time tonight, and all my birthday week actually, I feel so blessed! but SOMEHING IS MISSING. Now that the party is over, the celebration is over... Now that I'm home, in this room, in this bed alone I'm not okay. I wish a mother fucker would tell me "Well, That's YOUR FAULT KYM!" It's NOT MY FAULT! I'am not responsible for any "FUCKBOYS" actions and NO ONE CAN BLAME ME FOR CHANGING, after being disappointed, let down, played so many fucking times SMH! Can't blame me for not wanting to open up to someone again. I'm getting off topic 🤦🏽♀️ Am I making since? Anyway, I should be HAPPY! I'm thinking a lot! And I'm thinking about negative situations, people, and shit I can't control! I'm not trying to sound crazy or anything, but I am 😩😂💯🤷🏽♀️ To whom ever is reading this, HAVE YOU EVER WONDERED IF SOMEONE WAS AWAKE AT THE SAME EXACT TIME YOU WERE, THINKING OF YOU... AS YOU'RE THINKING OF THEM? Have YOU??? Well I'm going to LET IT GO NOW. EVENTUALLY! 💯 GOOD NIGHT WHOM EVER IS READING THIS.
Xo
They say the devil juice makes you tell the truth. Always know someone will be honest enough to cherish you even through your health they will never leave you. The more you concern yourself over negativity the more you will push away good loving men. Your knight in shinning armour is still riding looking for you. Have faith.
ReplyDeleteTo answer your question, yes. I've sat awake many a night wondering bout them, thinking bout them, imagining a awesome life with them.....but never wondered if they was thinking bout me cuz I knew they didn't really know me, or they didn't remember me for a various number of reasons (to much to drink being the main one). So yea, I get it. You're not alone Queen.
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