I feel I grew up fast, too fast! I was a happy child, no care in the world, before I turned maybe 12 years old 😔 Sadly From the first day I started school, first grade! It was HELL! I was bullied on the first day 😒 Evil ass kids! 😂🤦🏽♀️😩 I've been on the heavy side for, as long as I can remember! I've always been "PLUS SIZE" I've NEVER been skinny. At a young age, just twelve years old, I realized I was "different"? I didn't look, or behave as the other kids in school. I didn't believe anything was wrong with being different, but I often wondered WHY did they make fun of me so much... I knew I was, BIGGER, I knew I was special 😂💯😁 But the harassment, and bullying started to, become too much for ME! No BULLSHIT! I remember falling through a chair during class! YES! I BROKE THE FUCKING CHAIR DOWN! 😱😩😭 Someone set me up for failure! LMAO! Seriously! The whole class laughed at me! Didn't even help me back up from, the floor 🙄 That was the first most embarrassing moment of MY LIFE! 😂💯🤦🏽♀️ After that... Long story short. It didn't get any better for me. I feel others who don't know me personally, all these other beautiful, women who, constantly tell me " I INSPIRE THEM" would be "SHOOK" to know I delt with Anorexia growing up! I became very ill, For years!
I'm almost ashamed of sharing this information with others, putting it all out there! But, it was something very serious that I had to go through as little girl, as young woman. I didn't fully recover, and get myself together, till I was 17 years old! At 17 Years old, I dropped out of school, I had to take care of myself, I needed to be healthy again! Physically, Mentally, and Spiritually. 🙏🏾 Sadly, it took me dropping out of school to, get my life together! I haven't talked about this in so long! I talked about it briefly, in a school essay recently. Yes! Now I'm back in school, COLLEGE! finishing my education, and I'm HEALTHY, AND ALIVE! Still working on myself, Nothing wrong with bettering yourself, losing weight, getting FIT, but doing it the RIGHT WAY, "THE HEALTHY WAY!" And just finding MYSELF! Honestly, and truly learning to LOVE MYSELF as a PERSON, as a WOMAN, INSIDE & OUT! I can't stress how, important it is for US women, especially! Women! (NO OFFENSE MEN) 😂 It's so important for us to know our SELF-WORTH, AND TO LOVE OURSELVES, LOVE OUR BODIES! Our bodies are our TEMPLES! We are created to CREATE! Our body's, THIS BODY OF MINE, is capable of taking, and handling the most pain! So why is it, We can't handle simple, PAINFUL, WORDS from Un-Happy people? THIS BODY OF MINE Is STRONG! Our bodies carry children! We birth children! We GIVE LIFE!!! 🙌🏽 How can we not be STRONG? HOW CAN WE NOT LOVE & APPRECIATE OUR BODIES? MY AMAZING, BEAUTIFUL, STRONG, BODY! We have to look deeper! We have to learn how to LOVE OURSELVES UNCONDITIONALLY! I'm on this journey, I call it "MY HAPPINESS JOURNEY" WE HAVE TO LOVE OURSELVES SO, WE CAN RECEIVE GENUINE LOVE! ONCE WE LOVE OURSELVES, WE WOULD KNOW EXACTLY HOW IT TRULY FEELS TO BE GENUINELY LOVED! IF WE LOVE OURSELVES, our taste in MEN/WOMEN will CHANGE! 💯ONCE WE HAVE THAT LOVE FOR OURSELVES, WE KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE, WE WON'T ALLOW ANYONE TO LOVE US ANYTHING LESSER THAN UNCONDITIONAL. LEARN!
SELF-LOVE, SELF-WORTH IS LEARNED! Learn. 💯❤️🙏🏾
Thank you, Whom ever is reading this. Xo
Your story is truly a testimony! Continue to stay strong and confident and your real beauty will always shine.
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